Ich hasse Lügen, ich hasse es wenn ich dir Vertraue, ich hasse es wenn du mich zum heulen bringst
Ich hasse es einfach wenn du atmest und dich hasse ich auch ich kann dich nicht ab

I don't know why..
but my mood turns up to black
and the world is grey
 right now in this moment

i'm just..

...alone....

"Being a borderline feels like eternal hell. Nothing less. Pain, anger, confusion, never knowing how I’m gonna feel from one minute to the next. Hurting because I hurt those whom I love. Feeling misunderstood. Nothing gives me pleasure. Wanting to die but not being able to kill myself because I’d feel too much guilt for those I’d hurt, and then feeling angry about that so I cut myself or take an overdose to make all the feelings go away. "